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addiction, empty evenings

Spent much of the end of last week (at work) seeing how fast I could produce cartoons to illustrate a series of pages which take you through the emotional process of giving up an addiction. I was doing quite well by the end. Watch my stylus move! I expect it'll produce a whole new sort of RSI. While firing off emails to my boss about our currrent, ongoing, hopeless funding crisis ... In the evening struggling with displacement activities (with a 3-page strip due for Naked plus my thingy for Ladyfest I have plenty to displace) like pulling out all my papers from my current work box (why is there a folder of Stomping Scene stuff in there? Where are the masters for all my minicomics?) and putting them in order.

Things go strangeIn the process I found all the weekly strips I'd written which were too rude or too personal (as in, obviously about a certain person) or just too damn depressing. Sometimes I decide there's a safe distance and go back to them, but for these I probably won't. Though the one where my ex-office mate gets eaten by centipedes that crawl out of my head ... anyway, this week's strip isn't one of them.

It's something I drew when I noticed that I hadn't been sleeping too well the past few days, too many dreams and the nagging sense of missing something, which I had initially put down to the pain of missing Glastonbury this year. Wrong! What I was missing was the familiar winding of my stresses into nine neat compartments, embroidering it with jokes and sniggers and fixing it in ink and wash, the feeling of releif as the lines resolve, the satisfaction of scrape, shake, ache ...

... and I was worried that I wasn't qualified to talk about addiction ...

Comments

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marstokyo
29th Jun, 2003 06:01 (UTC)
LOVE it!! do you catch yourself when you fall? or do you just go down like a ton of bricks?
cleanskies
29th Jun, 2003 06:35 (UTC)
hm good question
... but hard to answer as I tend to blank out before I hit the bottom ...

But I've been through this before (and kept my eyes open)in the weekly strip (in late 2001). The story starts with The Fall) and runs straight for 5 weeks, and gives a pretty detailed view of view on the way down.

(if you want to follow the story further, you want The Drive in, Reading Self, Where do you see yourself in a year's time?, and The Swamp)
marstokyo
29th Jun, 2003 06:41 (UTC)
Re: hm good question
These are SO great!!! god, I died laughing over the *Where do you see yourself in a year's time?*
cleanskies
30th Jun, 2003 05:29 (UTC)
Re: hm good question
Written while I was supposed to be updating my CV. Boy, did I laugh. Laugh laugh laugh.

I didn't get the job.
marstokyo
30th Jun, 2003 07:44 (UTC)
Re: hm good question
I found something similar in my archives, sans the funny captions... think I'll post it in my vault.
( 5 worms — Feed the birds )